Thursday, December 8, 2011

Rick Perry is a Bigot. :)

Rick Perry are you really trying to play the faith card and claim that religion is being persecuted while gays have more rights than Christians? Are you stupid? (Well, yes you are.) I don't recall seeing anything on the news where Christians are being bullied and being subjected to hate crimes because of their choice to be a Christian. How ignorant can you possibly be to listen to this hate speech and support this moron?!
Instead of being a bigot and being so worried about gays in the military and implying that they aren't equal to the rest of us, why don't you fix healthcare and education in Texas! Are you so incompetent to do your job and have failed so miserably that other states pity us for having an idiot screwing everything up that your really trying to deflect?
How stupid can we as a state be for continuing to elect this joker who sits in his mansion bringing in millions of dollars for himself while people can't get medical treatment and teachers are struggling to live and students are being shoved through school not being able to read or write.
Ricky Perry you are a bigot and I do not approve your message.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

"I don't think I have enough hate in my heart to be a good Christian."

"I don't think I have enough hate in my heart to be a good Christian." This is a quote from the TV show Hell on Wheels. I loved hearing this witty comment directed at who is supposed to be the most loving of all. I often feel that Christians have so much hatred for everything that is wrong, bad and unchristian that there is not very much room left for love, acceptance and tolerance.
The example that I get from Jesus life on this earth is that He loved everyone and showed compassion and mercy to all. Isn't it more important to love first and always and not pass out judgement? I am so frustrated by those Christians who think that they have the right to judge anyone. I think the Bible makes it pretty clear that God passes judgement and that we are all sinners and don't deserve His mercy. What right does anyone have to condemn others when we are ourselves are in the seat of judgement?
I wonder if religion and faith is too often something that is used to justify your own actions by judging someone else so we feel better about our own actions that are lacking in godliness. If we can say someone else is worse than us, maybe we feel a little better about our slight imperfections. Perhaps it is also something that is easily used for comfort when a situation is too difficult to understand without looking for some higher authority for answers. Is it okay to pull religion out of your pocket and use it when it suits you, but not worry to much about it in everyday life? If you are going to be a Christian isn't it suppose to be an everyday kind of thing and not just when its convenient.
I would much rather someone identify me as a Christian and say that I loved first and didn't judge and they saw Christ living through me because of my kindness and compassion. I have heard just the opposite about myself and other Christians though. It pains me to know how many people have been treated horribly by Christians hell bent on passing down judgement and pointing everything that is wrong and corrupt and there is no love whatsoever. I myself  have been exposed to judgement and condemnation by fellow believers who have chosen to make assumptions and be cruel rather than to love.Ironically my desire to love others is what makes most Christians upset and uncomfortable with me.
Apparently we can only love others who are perfect like us and have no sin or faults. I strive to love everyone to the best of my ability regardless of what they have done or who are they are. I do not feel I have any right as a struggling Christian to assume that anyone else deserves anything from me, but love. Even as insignificant as that love may be from my small weak heart.
Someday I hope I can use all my anger and frustration that I have with almost everything in this world for love and compassion towards someone else and make a little difference. I hope the job that I'm currently at is doing just that. Showing some love, compassion and hopefully making a difference... even if it is small.

Friday, December 2, 2011

The Golden Rule? What's That?

Here's a random rant...
Whatever happened to the golden rule? "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you." this was instilled in my head at a very young age and it made so much sense to me! You're nice to them, they'll be nice to you back. If they are not nice, be nice and eventually they'll be nice back.
It works with kids, mostly. But when you get older and meet mean, nasty people you can try drowning them in niceness, but they'll still be mean. My behavior and attitude can have negative and positive effects on others, but nothing I do will make a person change who they are and cause them to treat people differently.
So when someone does something bad to me like spreading a rumor or lying about me, the expectation is that I forgive them and I resolve the issue since I was the one hurt. I can understand this and don't necessarily disagree. What I do disagree with is that if you are being a jerk and hurting people then accept your responsibilities, apologize and accept the consequences.
Yes, there will be consequences. Words you say and actions you do cannot be undone. Eventually things can get better and it won't hurt as bad, but it's always there. Forgiveness doesn't mean you let people continually hurt you because they apologized. Change has to happen.
So what would happen if adults thought before they spoke and acted and responded the way they would want to be treated. I wonder how things would change. Something to think about.

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

About Me

People think I’m very loud and angry. I think I’m just really bad at keeping my emotions on the inside and not letting them spill out and scare people. I have a problem with thinking something and then saying it. It’s hard for me to keep my thoughts and opinions in my head and not to blurt them out as loud as I can for everyone to hear. Maybe my mind is so small that it doesn’t have room to keep all these thoughts in so it pushes them all out into the open regardless of the consequences. Perhaps my mind is so big that all my thoughts keep bumping into each other and get tired of the commotion and want to leave.
It’s not that I feel so superior to everyone else that I feel that I have a duty to speak my mind to those minions wallowing beneath me. I guess I just think that I am exceptionally honest and have too much happening in my mind to not let it out and see the world.  I would rather be told the painful truth then to believe for one second something that was not true. I would rather cry in agony over the truth than live in joy with a lie. I assume that the way I think is the way the rest of the world thinks, which is my main problem.  The majority of people I come in contact with are content living in a deluded world believing things that are not true.
I started being overly opinionated and outspoken when I realized that I was living my life to make other people happy and was making myself miserable in the process. So I decided to stop pretending that I thought this or that or was this kind of person so someone else would be happy and hopefully love me. I went from one extreme to another and now I am me. I don’t ever want anyone to ever think for a moment something about me that is not true. I refuse to be silent and to not have an opinion. I am who I am and if you take the time to get to know me, we both might benefit from it.