People think I’m very loud and angry. I think I’m just really bad at keeping my emotions on the inside and not letting them spill out and scare people. I have a problem with thinking something and then saying it. It’s hard for me to keep my thoughts and opinions in my head and not to blurt them out as loud as I can for everyone to hear. Maybe my mind is so small that it doesn’t have room to keep all these thoughts in so it pushes them all out into the open regardless of the consequences. Perhaps my mind is so big that all my thoughts keep bumping into each other and get tired of the commotion and want to leave.
It’s not that I feel so superior to everyone else that I feel that I have a duty to speak my mind to those minions wallowing beneath me. I guess I just think that I am exceptionally honest and have too much happening in my mind to not let it out and see the world. I would rather be told the painful truth then to believe for one second something that was not true. I would rather cry in agony over the truth than live in joy with a lie. I assume that the way I think is the way the rest of the world thinks, which is my main problem. The majority of people I come in contact with are content living in a deluded world believing things that are not true.
I started being overly opinionated and outspoken when I realized that I was living my life to make other people happy and was making myself miserable in the process. So I decided to stop pretending that I thought this or that or was this kind of person so someone else would be happy and hopefully love me. I went from one extreme to another and now I am me. I don’t ever want anyone to ever think for a moment something about me that is not true. I refuse to be silent and to not have an opinion. I am who I am and if you take the time to get to know me, we both might benefit from it.
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