"I don't think I have enough hate in my heart to be a good Christian."

"I don't think I have enough hate in my heart to be a good Christian." This is a quote from the TV show Hell on Wheels. I loved hearing this witty comment directed at who is supposed to be the most loving of all. I often feel that Christians have so much hatred for everything that is wrong, bad and unchristian that there is not very much room left for love, acceptance and tolerance.
The example that I get from Jesus life on this earth is that He loved everyone and showed compassion and mercy to all. Isn't it more important to love first and always and not pass out judgement? I am so frustrated by those Christians who think that they have the right to judge anyone. I think the Bible makes it pretty clear that God passes judgement and that we are all sinners and don't deserve His mercy. What right does anyone have to condemn others when we are ourselves are in the seat of judgement?
I wonder if religion and faith is too often something that is used to justify your own actions by judging someone else so we feel better about our own actions that are lacking in godliness. If we can say someone else is worse than us, maybe we feel a little better about our slight imperfections. Perhaps it is also something that is easily used for comfort when a situation is too difficult to understand without looking for some higher authority for answers. Is it okay to pull religion out of your pocket and use it when it suits you, but not worry to much about it in everyday life? If you are going to be a Christian isn't it suppose to be an everyday kind of thing and not just when its convenient.
I would much rather someone identify me as a Christian and say that I loved first and didn't judge and they saw Christ living through me because of my kindness and compassion. I have heard just the opposite about myself and other Christians though. It pains me to know how many people have been treated horribly by Christians hell bent on passing down judgement and pointing everything that is wrong and corrupt and there is no love whatsoever. I myself  have been exposed to judgement and condemnation by fellow believers who have chosen to make assumptions and be cruel rather than to love.Ironically my desire to love others is what makes most Christians upset and uncomfortable with me.
Apparently we can only love others who are perfect like us and have no sin or faults. I strive to love everyone to the best of my ability regardless of what they have done or who are they are. I do not feel I have any right as a struggling Christian to assume that anyone else deserves anything from me, but love. Even as insignificant as that love may be from my small weak heart.
Someday I hope I can use all my anger and frustration that I have with almost everything in this world for love and compassion towards someone else and make a little difference. I hope the job that I'm currently at is doing just that. Showing some love, compassion and hopefully making a difference... even if it is small.